The Pieces

A stone hits the glass panel

……..It shatters……..

 

Suddenly what seems to be an ordinary glass pane

Now becomes a frightening sight

The lines and cracks on the glass pane look artistically eerie

The lines of the cracks defines clearly the pain

Each thin crack lines cries out a faint cry of lost

Uncertainty lurks at this vulnerable piece of glass

No one knows what will happen next

No one knows if this piece would hold another storm

or another gust of wind

No one knows the impact of a shatter 

 

Sometimes the pieces can be mended

But sometimes they’ll just remain as

THE PIECES

You Give And Take Away

Just few weeks ago, things were in a topsy-turvy state.I was confused. I know God has blessed us in many ways. Making things work out, opening doors but why it seems like as we walked through those open doors we only found not an open way but dead ends.Hitting brick walls almost every time makes me wonder if in the first place those open doors were really God’s will or did I do anything wrong to jeopadize the blessings.

Very much in an anxious, desperate and discouraged mood, there was literally nothing I could do but pray, wait and hang on.On one of those discouraging nights I plugged in my mp3 and went online, and a friend of mine… Actually I have not even met him. He’s my best friend’s boyfriend who came on and pop a message on MSN. He asked how was my plans going on. I told him briefly the topsy turvy-ness of the plans. He’s a very devoted Christian, one of those rare ones you ever find in this modern culture. And suddenly as I finished typing my sentence about my situation, the song “Blessed Be Your Name” by Matt Redman played on my mp3. Almost immediately, my friend replied on msn saying, “He give and take away but still blessed be His name”. Simple as that reply was it hit me. It lift my Spirit. I did not say much more to my friend cos’ that was all that was needed at that moment. I did not tell him the impact of his words. I knew it was God’s comforting me. I merely thanked my friend and signed out. As the song played I knew that sometimes I just cant figure out why God give and take away the same thing he just gave. It just doesn’t make sense. The goodness of God that I know of just doen;t coincide with the thought of God taking away His goodness from me.

Till now, I have no answer from anyone nor from God the reason He took away but He gave me the answer that is to just still bless His name and leave it all to Him.

I felt like telling God this is easier said than done. True. But i guess when i started blessing God and trusting even when i do feel angry at God for pulling things back… I start seeing little windows of hope opening for both me and Lionel. Its the most challenging journey ever taken. I’m Blessed to have Lionel on this new journey.

Not easy in anyway,
we’re determining hard enough
to praise Him anyway,
whether we gain or loose

Not only do we want to thank God for Good times. But in the painful ones too.

Thankyou Dear God..

Would I count this window of hope as an answered prayer? Yes Absolutely!!

Prayed answered for previous post “DEAR GOD”

 

Here’s the lyrics of the song.

Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

Blessed be your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s all as it should be
Blessed be your name

Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name

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Tears

Its all their expectations

all their hopes & dreams

and I could not live that out.

 

Speaking out is not the answer

trying to help isn’t too

all i did made things worst

 

Now i’m back at square one

with a throbbin pain in my head

and a sprain in my neck.

 

Whats wrong?

Never Good Enough?

Questions about this STATEMENT: “YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH”

1. How can i become good enough after all i tried?
2. Why is it do they always use these statement to stop me from doing something?
3. Is this somekind of tactic to try push me further?

4. or AM I just not good enough??

Confused….confused…confused……… makes me go ARGHHHHHH!!!!!

STRESS-FULL man!!

hmm….. may be this is good:-

Sugar Is No Poison

Sugar is poison!!!!!!!! argh argh … NOOOO how could that ever make sense to a 4 year old kid??? well it didn’t to me either but sooner it became an undisputed commandment of the Cho family.

But tonight, i decided to break that commandment and pamper myself. Oh yeah let me re-phrase it.. Tonight i just did some self soothing. Being tired, stressed, and exhausted I had a good cup of McD Choc Sundae and Coke. Oh man!!!! it was awesome..!!!…

For tonight sugar was No Poison. It was so soothing to the woman’s soul… !!!!! YUM YUM..

I’m satisfied now and i think i’m ready to hit the sack and soothe myself with sleep now!!!!

Nite Nite!!!!! muaxx

Drownin it

Sometimes sleep can be the best way to drown all that is goin on. Just snuggle up to your bed, wrap yourself with the comforters, and hug to your favourite pillow could bring you through stroms into dreamland! Drownin the frustrations unknowingly