Dear Child, I Hear You

 

Dear Child,

I heard your frustrations when no one hears it

I heard you clearer than ever even in the times when you tried to voice it out to others

I heard your heart break and your feelings crushed when others brought back a piece of achievement metal

I heard you even when you did not try to tell me but you countlessly desperately told someone else

I heard it all way before you felt this way

I heard you when the people you talk to were too busy gaining grounds and titles

I heard you when the one you trusted has their own agenda

I heard your heart weep silently when you watched others weep for joy

I heard your wishes when you hear people have supporters and cheerers making their achievement a possibility

I heard you when you feel rejected and neglected  somtimes by the ones I gave as your family and companion

I heard the times you wanted to burst out

I heard the days you feel like stabbing someone

I heard the times you wish to have the power to just blow things off

I heard the hours you had to battle controlling your emotions and feelings

I heard when you had to willfully love and give

I heard when you thought by supporting you would gain likewise

I heard the dissapointments and regrets

I heard you struggle through the weeks

I heard when your physical body shattered and broke down

I heard the discomfort and pain

 

I heard you but I have not left you, my child

I heard it all when no one really or can ever hear

I hear you well enough to say

“hang on to the gifts and goals I have for your life”

I will bring it into completion

I love You my Child, my precious Child

 

Love,

Daddy who’s in Heaven

My Dear Gal, B

Hey Gal,

It’s Ok

Just bury your face on my shoulders let it go

I understand where you are and how it feels

I was there before

I am aquainted with the anger, the frustration and the lost of hope

I was there before

I know how it feels when the dreams and wishes just pops like a bubble

I was there before

I know when the phone rings and a message beeps on your cell

but it all seems so empty, confusing and not bringing any sunlight

I was there before

 

Since I was there one thing I can tell you

HANG IN THERE

Hope on for a better tommorow

It won’t be long before dawn will break the darkness of the night

Don’t loose hope,

I pray God will hold you BOTH through it all

Hope on because hope fights on

Hope lives to see you win

Hope strives beyond the last ounce of strength

Only hope can bring you over the hurdlers

SO KEEP HOPING FOR A BETTER DAY!!

Hang in there dear

Hugs for you B

A Love That Never Fails

So long, I’ve protected you from the truth

So long, I struggled to make you the one

But tonight I told you the truth

Tonight I reveal to you the struggles

Tonight I told you about the memories I battle with

 

I have the options, you let me have the choice

Tempted to run back to the memories

But I know that is impossible

Because the memories may be lost

Tempted to just flee the reality and be gone

But I know all that awaits me then would be the pain of all my losses

And added to that is the pain of seeing your wound

 

 

I guess our journey now leads us to the real ocean

I’m now determine to be the best at making your life complete

Not mine but yours

I may have my losses and my painful memories

But these will propel me to be the best you ever have

I will not waste your love

 

When I’m unable to say the words

I will say those words with my actions and double it too

When the memories hit at me hindering me to be what I pledge to be

I will fight it off and hold on to you ever more tightly

When the pictures of the streets and bridges I have once crossed floods my mind

I will look you in the eyes and thank God you are the man of my life

When the scars of history reappear and the wounds seems to hurt

I will find my strength in you

 

I am forever grateful for

your love

your prayers

your support

and your willingness to walk through with me this dark side of me

 

Love,

Your Girl

You Are Cherished Always

I’ll take time today to cherish you

to reflect the many things you are to me

for the past one and the half years

 

Yes I recall the unconventional genesis we had

In the oddest of circumstances, we met

On the most unlikely outing, you caught my attention

At the point of time when all seems to say “no way”, I decided

On the day we thought would never come, we got the answer

On the evening that was meant only for you,  you made my wildest dream come true on your knees

 

Today is just a normal day,

Nothing special or significant

But let me tell you

You are remembered and cherished \

Every single day

 

There are days, I fail to show that

I may have caused you frustrations

And even  be demanding

But deep in my heart please know

I am grateful you came into my life

I love your eyes and smile

I love your arms of security and comfort

I love your surprises and efforts to make things nice and right

I love the words you speak, the songs you sing

and the crazy times we laugh together

As much as I love all these,

I also appreciate your uniqueness and differences

The times when you get worked up

The times when you flare up

The times when you just pisses me

The times when everything seems so wrong

I Love You As You Are!

For I too have my bad

But you still Love me no less

 

Thanks hun

you are cherished always!

 

And Now He’s Gone

 

He was there at the start,

Used to be there

But now he’s gone.

I see his image but he’s not there

only God knows why.

 

I wish he comes back home

Seasons of Serenity

Serenity cries out loud from this portrait,

We dream and wish our days would be such a paradise,

Where no storm clouds rise,

Where blue sea rolls with serenity,

Where crystal white waves crashes against the secure rocks at bay,

Oh what an Eden to just live at the bay of such serenity.

 

I do not doubt neither will I deny this feeling,

But I have discover that seasons of serenity is everywhere around us,

I did not realize this till I found myself in the darkest nights,

Then like a little glimmer, I saw a faint light,

A faint light of hope, upon which I fixed my eyes on,

Like a sailor lost in the open sea, fixing his eyes on the ray from a lighthouse,

The massive darkness is drown by that little ray of light,

Serenity calmed my fears and I could see that day will soon break into the night sky,

Hope built courage to battle through the storm,

Each time I managed to rise when the waves crashed over me,

I’m humbled that the Rock of Ages was always my solid rock on wish I stand,

I guess, with that Glimmer of  LIGHT, each day, each life’s journey, no matter what the season,

It’s still the Season of Serenity.

The Mark of A New Journey

This marks a new milestone of the journey

A new journey of joy, love, laughter, tears, even uncertainties

Your mind may already be filled with questions to ask me

It’s okay…

I am prepared for the many reactions, remarks and expressions I’ll receive

Some will be there to support

some will be too stunned for words

some will just shrug and walk off

some will be as excited as I am

some will be sadden for me to leave

others may just think

i’m inadequate for this journey

whatever others may say, feel, think or react……

This journey will begin.. and it has already begun.

I don’t dare sayI’m fully ready

but I trust in the One who created me

to guide me

hold me

walk with me

and strengthen me through it all

 

               

 

                                  

 

(Photos taken with Sony Ericsson K5501)

 

 

 

Adapting To It

Adapting to the silence

may not know the reason for it

 

I will judged not

I will speak not

I will act not

All I’ll do is be still

and know that You are God

Tears

Its all their expectations

all their hopes & dreams

and I could not live that out.

 

Speaking out is not the answer

trying to help isn’t too

all i did made things worst

 

Now i’m back at square one

with a throbbin pain in my head

and a sprain in my neck.

 

Whats wrong?

One Fleeting Moment

Life is one fleeting moment in time;

There is no time to keep looking to left and envying friends’ riches

There is no time to keep looking to the right and admiring what other’s are achieving

There is only time to live my own life like it’s my last 5 minutes and then start it all over again….

Soon life will be over,

before you even acomplish everything you ever dreamed or planned

but every 5 minutes you lived as if it was your last 5 minutes,

matter will make your fleeting moment here

a life well-lived.

 

dear God help me remember this and not get distracted…. Amen