………. Charity Cho will be away at Youth Camp this week
……………Charity Cho slacked in updating her blog because she has major adjustments
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…………………….Sorry guys, please bear with her a little longer
………………………….Charity Cho thanks you all for Understanding
Godblessandseeyousoon
Silence can be good for a woman’s soul
When all around her is anger and frustration
When all around her is the rough and tough
When all around her is dissappointments
Allow her to just remain silent
I have no reason why she has to
Nor do I know for how long she has to
Only her soul will know it
A stone hits the glass panel
……..It shatters……..
Suddenly what seems to be an ordinary glass pane
Now becomes a frightening sight
The lines and cracks on the glass pane look artistically eerie
The lines of the cracks defines clearly the pain
Each thin crack lines cries out a faint cry of lost
Uncertainty lurks at this vulnerable piece of glass
No one knows what will happen next
No one knows if this piece would hold another storm
or another gust of wind
No one knows the impact of a shatter
Sometimes the pieces can be mended
But sometimes they’ll just remain as
THE PIECES
Just few weeks ago, things were in a topsy-turvy state.I was confused. I know God has blessed us in many ways. Making things work out, opening doors but why it seems like as we walked through those open doors we only found not an open way but dead ends.Hitting brick walls almost every time makes me wonder if in the first place those open doors were really God’s will or did I do anything wrong to jeopadize the blessings.
Very much in an anxious, desperate and discouraged mood, there was literally nothing I could do but pray, wait and hang on.On one of those discouraging nights I plugged in my mp3 and went online, and a friend of mine… Actually I have not even met him. He’s my best friend’s boyfriend who came on and pop a message on MSN. He asked how was my plans going on. I told him briefly the topsy turvy-ness of the plans. He’s a very devoted Christian, one of those rare ones you ever find in this modern culture. And suddenly as I finished typing my sentence about my situation, the song “Blessed Be Your Name” by Matt Redman played on my mp3. Almost immediately, my friend replied on msn saying, “He give and take away but still blessed be His name”. Simple as that reply was it hit me. It lift my Spirit. I did not say much more to my friend cos’ that was all that was needed at that moment. I did not tell him the impact of his words. I knew it was God’s comforting me. I merely thanked my friend and signed out. As the song played I knew that sometimes I just cant figure out why God give and take away the same thing he just gave. It just doesn’t make sense. The goodness of God that I know of just doen;t coincide with the thought of God taking away His goodness from me.
Till now, I have no answer from anyone nor from God the reason He took away but He gave me the answer that is to just still bless His name and leave it all to Him.
I felt like telling God this is easier said than done. True. But i guess when i started blessing God and trusting even when i do feel angry at God for pulling things back… I start seeing little windows of hope opening for both me and Lionel. Its the most challenging journey ever taken. I’m Blessed to have Lionel on this new journey.
Not easy in anyway,
we’re determining hard enough
to praise Him anyway,
whether we gain or loose
Not only do we want to thank God for Good times. But in the painful ones too.
Thankyou Dear God..
Would I count this window of hope as an answered prayer? Yes Absolutely!!
Here’s the lyrics of the song.
Blessed be your name
In the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
When I’m found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
Blessed be your name
When the sun’s shining down on me
When the world’s all as it should be
Blessed be your name
Blessed be your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there’s pain in the offering
Blessed be your name
Every blessing you pour out,
I turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say…
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your glorious name
You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, Blessed be your name
WATCHING THE PARTY
MISSING MY HIGH SCHOOL GIRLFRIENDS
DOING LOTS OF DEEP THINKING AND PLANNING
MAKING PROMISES WITH MY FRIENDS BUT I CAN'T SEEM TO FULFILL THEM
WISHING I HAD MY OWN CIRCLE OF COMPANY
WALKING DOWN "ROAD LESS TRAVELLED"... AT TIMES APPROACHING "DEAD END STREET"
PLACED AMONG THORNY LIFE'S SITUATION
TOLD THAT THE VIEW AHEAD IS STILL BLUR AND UNCERTAIN
TRUSTING AND HOLDING ON
Adapting to the silence
may not know the reason for it
I will judged not
I will speak not
I will act not
All I’ll do is be still
and know that You are God
My 3rd year in BCM has just ended. All that stress from assignments, work, duties have all come to a sudden halt. Yesterday was the finale of the year- the Graduation Exercise. For as much as I feel happy for the graduates, I’m always asking myself when will be my turn? how will it be like?…. Anyway the day passed smoothly. I gave my best on the key board. It may be the last time for me to be able to play at the graduation exercise since i wil be part-time next year or maybe graduating next year. I was glad I gave my best.
the past few days before the graduation exercise was full of events, happening, work and more work. Besides the much things that needed to be done, much things i learned, seen, and realized too. In terms of the people around me, my self, my peers etc…. it was rather interesting as well as saddening at times.
One of the treasured times this week was the evening with 4 other girlfriends. We hung out at Midvalley, ate at dominos and had a good time to really talk like we seldom do, laugh which we almost never did for a long time, and pamaper our taste buds. Interestingly WE DIDN’T SHOP!! it was a worthwhile time of sharing and bonding. I really enjoyed that evening!
Now i’m sitting here in the church office. It’s the first day of the holidays. Sometimes its hard to cope with no work, no college, too free…. LOL…..
Sometimes I wish I could do more………….
The week passes so quickly but there is nothing I’ve accomplished. It’s only a……
Weekdays… is very much a routine…
Weekends… is sometimes even more frustrating because I WISHED I COULD DO MORE…
I wished I don't have to open the door every morning and see the same scene of my life
Waiting & Holding on to your dreams can be like stagnant waters
Questions about this STATEMENT: “YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH”
STRESS-FULL man!!
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